Until my last breath...until my last day

I was completely shocked about what happened i didn't know what to do

So i went and read her tweets

" the truth hurts "

And many others so i went and asked her questions

" sorry for everything i was a jerk forgive me:'( & bye "

Dalia

" mnu? "

Me : a stupid person:'(

Dalia : who?

Me : are you mad?

Dalia : well idk:(

Me : sad?

Dalia : maybe

Me : disappointed?

Dalia : maybe:(

Me : why are You sad&Disappointed for?

Dalia : for the truth :')

Me : what is the truth?

Dalia : You know :(

Me : and how can i fix it:(?

Dalia : as you like :'(

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That day i was totally upset about what just happened ugh!! I loved her so much so was my true love o just don't know how i ruined it up! How could i fix it?

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I went and called 3moor

Me : aloo?!

3moor : halla

Me : ha shlonik?

3moor : tmam wnt?

Me : walla madry enzain abe n9ee7tik

3moor : ha shnu?

Me : dalia drat ene aklm "m" w ohma b nfs el mdrsa wna jad jad abee dalia bs mabe " m" shswe*upset*

3moor : oulaaa mu 7lwa el 7rka!

Me : 7aaail *disappointed*

3moor : shouf ent klmha w rath'ha b ay shay fhmlha enik t7bha w chthe w enshalah e6kh w dsh 3laiha

Me : madry shgoul *upset*

3moor : bs goul ele b galbik w khala9

Me : okay

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I went and send dm to someone-says to inform dalia

" i'm sorry for everything i was stupid i will fix it:'( "

Dalia was upset and disappointed and the truth completely hurts but iloved her so much she was on my mind 24/7 and still on my mind " and No matter what will happen i will never give up on her cuz i love her and always will love her no matter what difficulties we're dealing with she's my life and soul she stole my heart and kept with her forever "

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The sun rises above the hillcrest,

As does the joy of my heart;

Rays of warmth and love,

From her I will never depart.

Fresh dew upon the grass,

Young birds chirp in their nests;

I watch her gently sleep,

My love to her I silently profess.

I enjoy the stillness and calm,

Watching as she smiles and dreams;

She brings me to stillness and peace,

Like that of a slow flowing stream.

My heart and soul flow with love,

And I smile as I quietly reflect;

I’ve been handed a sweet princess,

A sweet princess to love and to protect.

A vow to myself I make,

As she quietly sleeps away;

To love and always cherish her,

Until my last breath... until my last day.

انساه لا مافيني

Days past and the love grow more and more

It was weekend 

*whatsapp group*

3abood : yalla shbab elyoum klna shalaih bdoun est'thna2!

Bu jassim  : ana byy wya ahle

Hussain : ana Bmr aziz w omar w byy

3abood : zain 

So we all went to the chalet 

Omar and i went with Hussain

We arrived the chalet...

Me : emshaw el dewaniya shklhum w9law

Omar&hussain : yalla

We went to the " dewaniya " and saw them

Me : ha 3abood 

3abood : halla 3zoz

Me : bu jassim! Ha shlonik?

Bu jassim : tmam wnt?

Me : tmam

Hussain : ha shnawyeen tswoun bs chthe ga3deen?

Bu jassim : emshaw khn ntmsha

Bro's : yalla okay

So we went and walked around the chalet's 

While walking..

*trnn*

Kik notification

I opened my phone and saw who?

It was a girl I didn't knew her 

Her : hey

Me : salam , mnu?

Her : ana wa7da wde at3raf 3laik 

Me : Mmm ensaiy 7ub

Her : laish

Me : bs

Her : mrtb6?

Me : yes

Her : shsmha?

Me : mara7 agoul

Her : bs awal 7arf

Me : M

Her : okay bs goule esmha

Me : ****** el*****

I was stupid i don't know what i said that

Anyways

She asked many question who old are You your fav color your hoppy and many

Me : which school?

Her : sms shcool

Me : ee shnu y3ne " sms"

Her : la ana mu sms ana qurtba school

Its funny what she did 

Me : okay

Her : do you know dalia?

Me : dalia al....

Her : yeah . What do you think about her

Me : madry she has a nice personality and i would like to meet her

Her : okay tra ana maknt wathqa feek w fa chthabt ana mu b qurtba ana bl surra w tra a3rf ur gf w hman dalia 

I was shocked..

To be continued...

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It was my best 11 month i couldn't ask for more happiness i was the happiest man ever i love The way you made me feel oh i felt so special at moment i thought it last forever but nothing last i know it goodbye forever , but here is something i would like to say

Please take care of Yourself wish my best don't get sad or something cuz i don't worth it i wanted it to last forever or to celebrate our first anniversary but thats how the life works we don't what happing tomorrow maybe things will get better maybe one day you'll forget me and live happily i won't give up cause my life isn't meant to be without You i love You so much takeCare w sorry for everything i did i know i wasn't perfect 

IloveYou

Forever&always

Hey Fuck the blog now! I'll write whats in my heart

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I do miss You so much a day without is hell i'd rather die than left alone i love You Remember that? I won't give up on you you're name is written in heart.... Nothing could let me Fall cuz i love you everything seems perfect with You i don't know if i'm a wrong choice or not , but please stay cuz nothin my life is so dark i love You i miss Our long texts our stories our call our jokes our fights our love i miss Us i know its my second or third day alone but its felt like Years i second without pass like an hour ur My only u didn't give Up once i won't give up this time if it took all my life i'll still wait cuz Ur the one Baby i miss Our many nicknames remember when get jealous about silly things remember when we tease each other everyday i miss that , i miss waking with a billion message From You and 15 miss calls i miss that... 

I still believe in us..

" can i be Yours & your mine forever "

Remember

FOREVER

قررت اموت بحبك

I arrived home kissed my mom and dad and ate lunch 

Dad : ha shlon el mdrsa?

Me : tmam

Mom : ha 3ndik worksheet bacher?

Me : ee math

Mom : shid 7ailek edrsla 

Me : ee enshalah , tra 3nde match elyoum okay?

Mom : okay m3a mnu?

Me : kazma

Mom : yalla okay

So i done eating and started studying for a while

And went to my family

Me : sahal el math kila 2 chapters khn albs now 3la ma eyy el bus w ywdeena nadi kazma

Mom : yalla zain abe full mark ha?

Me : enshalah

I opened my phone and read her tweet 

I started saying to myself

She took my heart i swear i love her ugh i wanna meet her

* horn *

Me : yalla el bus w9al yalla bye

Dad&mom : bye fouz ha?

Me : enshalah

dad&mom : zain

So i went and sat in the bus

20 min we arrived the club

The coach came...

Coach : abeekum tfouzon elyoum ha? Tra ma3ndhum shay bs ena ohma 3ndhum khbra akthar mnkum la2na 9arlhum fatra yl3boun wya b3ath

Team mates : enshalah coach

Coach : w yalla la tkhafoun w abe 9rakh bl mal3ab

Team mates : enshalah

We exercised for 30 min then the match started

And oh yeah i play volleyball

The first half ended 25-23 to kazma

The second half ended 25-22 to us

The 3rd and 4th half ended to them

23-25 18-25

And kazma won

I wasn't having that much training cuz my family didn't agree 

Coach : aziz abeek tshid 7ailek 3shan el dawre ent ele nag9na ana bklm ubouk 3shan yrtha tyy el nadi w ttmran lazm bs shid 7ailek bl drasa 3shan yrtha ubouk

Me : enshalah coach

I went back to the bus and back home

8 pm

I went and lay in the bed

I was totally  exhausted

So i opened my phone and asked dalia

" Goodnight yal perfect "

Dalia

" goodnight <3 "

And slept..

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انت ياساكن قلبي اسمح لعيش بقلبك...

قربك ترى يحيني... وصوتك انايهديني

...وبعدك ترى يبكيني...لاتغيب عني وربك

...بنسى معاك همومي واسهرواخلي نومي

...واعيش وقتي ويومي...كله وانا بجبك

...قربك ترى يحيني ...وصوتك انا يهديني

...وبعدك ترى يكبيني لاتغيب عني وربك

...مثلك انا مالاقي يصعب عليك فراقي 

...صادق انا باشوقي ...لوتكذب اعشق كذبك

انا عشقتك عشق وصلني الى حد الهيام

So i arrived home took my bag and laid down..

I took my phone and asked dalia

" Gn;* yal jameela have a nice day at school <3 "

Dalia

" Gn , you too;) "

From that day then everything was perfect 

I went to bed and slept

6:30 am

*knocking the door"

Bro : aziz yalla goum bnrou7 el mdrsa

Me : *sleepy voice* yalla okay

So i went washed my face and wore my school uniform , ate breakfast and went to the car

Kik notification

M : goodmorning

Me : goodmorning 

M : bl6reej ent?

Me : la w9alt el mdrsa i g2g 

M : okay

So we arrived the school and throw my bag and went to the football court 

Me : salam

3abood : halla

Me : bgoulik shay?

3abood : shnu?

Me : ma mlait mne? Ana mlait mnik ashoufik klyoum bl mdrsa w bl shalaih wyay n3am felha *laughing*

3abood : *laughing* ee walla wna mlait mnik

Me : jad y3ne 9 years wyak shnu akthar b3ad zain btflha hal sna w btrou7 america tnthber hnak 5 sneen

3abood : ee aftak mn wayhik *laughing*

Me : la 3ad ra7 nolah 3laik yalla klha chm sna wtrd muhands enshalah

3abood : wna b3ad walla! Enshalah ameen

Me : shlon bdawem brou7e sna el yaya t3wadt wyak mn grade 1 wnt wyay

3abood : *laughing* 3ade 3ade a9lan wanasa tjabel el teachers el khra ele hnee

Me : ee 7aaaail 3ade

3abood* laughing*

Me : yalla brou7 el class ana

3abood : yalla ana b3ad

Me : zain

So we went to our classes i had the worst period ever! Arabic

Mr : 6la3 el dftar wl ktab

so i took them out and he started writting so i wrote after him

Me : walla mthla el highschool ya zeen middle school al7een 3laihum break w7na nktb

Sa3ood : eeh 7aaaail

me : walla w 3laina arabic now

Sa3ood : ee wayed yaktb!

Me : 7aaaail abe a6la3 zhagt

Sa3ood : ee yalla e6la3

Me : may6l3ne el zeft ydre ene mara7 ared 79ta

S3ood : *laughing* agoul shlon elshalaih?

Me : zain

S3ood : ha btrou7 el nadi elyoum?

Me : ee brou7 asasan 3laina match

S3ood : m3a?

Me : kazma

S3ood : ee aqwya

Me : ee 7aaail bs mayfozoun

S3ood : ee la tkhlounhum

Me : akeed

Arabic period finished

Me : shnu 3laina al7een?

S3ood : English

Me : lazm akhyas Periods wra b3ath

S3ood : ee walla agoulik emsh wyay el edara bklm ele hnak

Me : yalla

s3ood : emsh

We arrived to the admin

S3ood : emsh khn ng3ad 3nd el principal 

Me : ee ent was6at 3ade mayswounlik shay

S3ood : *laughing*

We went to the principal office we had a conversation with him for an hour

S3ood : yalla bnmshe al7een break

Pricipal : okay

Me : shft el camerat hatha walla maku shghel bs yjabel el camerat

S3ood : 7aaaail

Me : walla m3thbna

S3ood : *laughing*

So we went out for a break then back to the class

We had a rough day kila periods maleeqa

Me :Yalla al7een the bell rang

S3ood : eeh yalla 6wal elyoum

Me : 7aaail!

Suddenly the bell rang i took and went to the car and slept

القوي الله وحبي لك قوي

Days past and we started knowing each other more and more i was still talking to " M " but my heart belongs to her so let me introduce her to You

Her name is Dalia her english is perfect her personality is amazing 

I was afraid to talk to her or do a move 

Because i was still with M but i loved dalia 

Everyday she receive an ask from me 

" Gm yal jameela have a nice day in school <3 "

Dalia : " goodmorning;* you too xo " 

We're meant to be even though we didn't share anything..

I still remember that days everytime i asked her she tweets 

" CUTEEEEE " 

We loved each other everything was just perfect 

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So the next day in chalet

M wasn't there

1 pm

Bu jassim : emsh starbucks 

Me : yalla okay

So i wear my clothes

Bu jassim : yalla na6rik bara!

Me : okay

I took my wallet and my phone 

On the way to starbucks i unlock my phone and asked dalia 

" goodming yal jameela <3 "

Dalia : goodmorning <3 ;$

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She was on mind like 24/7

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So after 10 min we arrived Starbucks

Me : ha bu jassim shtbe?

Bu jassim : caramel frapp extra caramel 3 times up and down 

Me : zain nfse 3yal 

Bu jassim : ee nafsik

Me : yalla okay

So we ordered and sat 

Suddenly m showed up 

Me : shouf hathe m ? Galtle mara7 tyy el shalaih

Bu jassim : yuba 3ade 6af gayelik mn zman 3laiha suwalef

Me : ee adry mu hamtne 

Bu jassim : ee zain tswe

Me : ee 

She entered starbucks i saw me and didn't care 

Me : yalla yalla emsh

Bu jassim : okay 

So we went back to the chalet 

Me : shbab mita n7der?

Bro's : 3 pm

Me : zain y3ne b3ad sa3a

Bro's : eeh

Me : zain 3yal b7i6 aghrathe

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So i pack my stuff and laid on the coach i opened my phone and started reading dalia's tweets

Ugh i wanted to talk to her but i couldn't m was ruining it all i didn't want to talk to her and talk to m at the same time i must do something 

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*back to reality*

3abood : yalla bnmshe!

Bro's : yalla okay

So we put our bags in the car and went back home 

W lazm 6oul el6reej mutref;p

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بس قول أبغى وأنا أقول حاضر

إنت الوحيد اللي كلامك أوامر

خاطـرك عنّدي تـرى مو مثل غيرك

خاطرك يسوى ترى مليون خاطر

القوي الله وحبي لك قوي

شوف إيش أعمل اذا تطلبني شي

ينشغل بالي وأدور لك عليه

وعيني ما تغمض ولا حتى شوي

تهمني طبعا حبيبي تهمني

انت بس اللي بعمري هزني

انت من حقك إذا تامر علي

وآنا من حقي أبيك تحبني